neglected

So wow... I finally started a blog and then I totally forget about it. Oh well.

Christmas came and went so fast this year. I was determined to not be stressed about it and I think I successfully conquered. I haven't been feeling the best lately so I don't feel like I got to fully enjoy the holiday experience. Maybe next year!

It has almost been a year since my surgery and I can hardly believe it! In some ways it feels like it was yesterday and in others it feels like it's been a long time. I have been feeling pressure lately to get a job. I feel like people think i should. Here's the thing.. I just don't feel quite ready. Yes I had my surgery and yes I am feeling better these days.. even better than I did pre-op but I still don't feel fully recovered. They say it can take up to 3 years to heal completely, at least in my case since I was sick for so long. People just don't understand, and that's ok I guess. I don't expect they could. God understands and that is a great comfort. I've had a lot of people tell me... "I forget you're even sick, Mandie cause you don't act like a sick person." they tell me "I think that's cool". Quite honestly I don't know if I consider this a compliment or not. I have mixed feelings about it. Hmm.. I don't know why but I have been in such a melancholy mood lately.. it must be 'cause I'm not feeling good.

On a more positive note I got a new camera and am very excited about it.. I have been thinking about getting into photography for a while. So I finally made the plunge and invested in a DSLR canon T1i. I know nothing! so far the automatic modes take awesome pictures, I can't wait to learn all the cool techniques! I hope I've got what it takes.

Well, that'll be all for now.